So, I've decided to leave Monolith for the time being over some important stuff. Let me explain half of it as the other half is too personal to share with a community that can be positive and negative. Since my computer has stopped working (cpu cores are bent) I was going to buy a new pc (over 2g's) but now realized I should keep that towards my car fund. (25,000/60,000) Ive also had troubles with family. Especially someone I havent seen since I was 10. I've never mentioned this to anyone on here before but I guess since I need to get better at venting, I should let it out. When I was 5 we moved away from my dad from Kansas to Colorado. He was under the influence of Heroin, Crack, Cocaine, and drunk all the time. For god sakes, he wanted to sleep in a fucking car instead of paying rent. He never tried to get better so thats when my mother decided to make the best decision of my life and leave him. I recently got a letter from my dad's mom wishing me a merry christmas. I was happy until I read that my dad had been sober for 7 month's. It broke my heart to read those words. In the past 6-7 years he hasn't even tried to contact me or my little brother. I fell into a deep depression these pass days and wish I never read that line. Regardless I've been also getting ready for wrestling season as my goal is to go to state. But I also wanted to let people know that I'm always here on the forums. And I want to start a more positive way. I'm kind of a stubborn person but usually I'm chilled out. I still regret to this day about my behavior and abusive ways that led me to my demotion though, and still deeply apologize for my ways. I also want to say thanks to a bunch of people that made me who I am today. @its ya boi troy you've always been that guy that has me in different moods and ways. Especially when you tell at me for every fuck up. @Hisoka Since the day we've met I've always seen you as a role model. (Not in real life) but in game. I have most respect for you. @KJM your cool @Aaron let me be honest with you, ever since the day I met you, I always had that side that wanted to look up to you, becoming a moderator was a amazing point in my lifetime. But you, you do this everyday. You put up with so much shit from others. Thats what led me to stop caring about my position but you keep going. I wish I was like you. @A Dark ℛose Panda where do I start? You've always been a generous and caring guy. I remember having fun physgunning eachother and you being a cook. I wish I had more time to know you, and everyone else. @zombie2000hy ive always loved your Canadian ways. And how sometimes I had to wait for you at 4 in the damn morning. We never made all those guns we planned to awhile ago. Maybe someday. @Lil Pat I love your line " Stop! You've violated the law!" Cracks me up. @papa1456 Dammit tom, I still wanna raid with you. Seems fun a lot. To anyone that I didnt mention I still love you and wish you a merry christmas @Sam Wong. I hope that ill be able to play with this community again and wish that I had more time, but for now I must proceed in a different way, goodbye for (now)
We hope to see you online soon!